I was skeptic at first when my thoughts turned to classic 'when i clap my hands you are a chicken' moments. Then after contemplating it and having it explained to me. I realised that it wasnt like that and was more a form of deep relaxation then anything else. Unfortunately my thoughts then turned to what he wanted me to say when in this state of relaxation and he chose to tell me that the last person he did this with broke his chair and glass wall O.o in a fit of panic. Because they were actually 'reliving' the events.
Perhaps this wasnt the best thing to tell me to get me to agree. Although i did infact make some noise of assent that i would try this. Im still not sure i want to. NOW not because i think its a farce, but because i think it will work to well. I dont want to ever lose control of anything in my life again, and if this method is used to help me speak about what happened. I think i will only be able to see it as coercion and trickery (...wow i sound paranoid).
Atleast i have another week to stress and fret ....err i mean contemplate and review my answer. I think I will atleast give it a try. I want to start getting over this, but I really dont know what my reaction to being made to speak about and relive this will be. But the more steps i take towards being safe and more balanced the less medication ill need (hopefully).
So if after next week i become a mindless chicken zombie, do us all a favour and snap your fingers...works like a charm :P
Courtney
I'll high five you, then you'll snap your own fingers and snap out of it :P
ReplyDeleteYou've been getting better about talking about alot of things, I know you'll be able to handle it :) You're a strong person.
I'm a hypnotherapist myself - it may be worth suggesting to your therapist that you'd like to establish a "safe place" that you can return to on a signal. I usually do this with my clients if there's a chance that they may become distressed by what we're dealing with.
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